#Alone

"Strangers, Hi!"

Oops, I afraid I will keep that forever in myself.

Sitting, Watching peoples rushing from all corners, 

I knew, 

I knew no one.

Loneliness, terrible feelings sparked unusual spotlights. 

Money dropped, 

Heart stopped. 

Oh shit, 

opened mouth, Saliva swallowed in. 

I was alone in the big world

I mentioned.

Phone, money together,

I held them closer.

I see, 

I came, I see, but I can't conquer.

#Error

An error,
turns out to be the greatest mistake at all.
Left me zipped my mouth,
and let it be.
I do believe I don't like to explain,
even if I want to.
Do ask me,
"Why all that pooped out from somewhere?"
And I
jumped straight into blame game,
Forever.

#See

I see others,
struggling to make ends meet.
And yet,
they also failed to impress the Reality.

I see others,
making fool of themselves in front of the mirror,
Pretending smile really their best medicine,
I even believe the "pharmacist" failed Chemistry.

I see others,
Picking up scraps of life in recycle bin,
sparkling shiny metal reflected on themselves,
They ran hasten,
Never ever looked back,
Easy to guess why,
As that is no presence of the mighty Gold.

I see.
I see.

#Frogs

They were alive,
Just before me and my classmates decided to dissect them,
Yup!  For educational purpose.
That's what we claimed.
Ops!  Frog= latest victim.
May their souls be at peace,
Even when their body were physical torn.

And I took up the responsibility for bringing them to death
.

#Teachers

When is time to reflect on myself to not take lightly challenges,
Teachers told and expose my greatest mistakes, and I admit them all.

"YOUR FACE TURNED WHEN COMES TO CHEMISTRY EXPERIMENTS, YOU DID NOT PREPARE WELL AND YOUR GROUP MEMBERS ALL RELY ON YOU. THAT IS  THE WORST THING."
I knew that..

"83% IN BIOLOGY TEST DOES NOT GUARANTEE 'A' IN  SPM.
I see that teacher trying to hints something.

Form 4 life draws near to the end.
And I....

# Sometimes

Sometimes things went wrong,
Just blame them on your own faults.
Besides, keep calm & bear the consequences.

Test results' grade seems moderate when I took a sight on them.
I knew lazy brings out the ulgy sides. Frequently. And never fail.
Nothing changed even if I want to.

No one would able to replace me and my situation.
So, put the best efforts to keep up the pace.

:)

#Mix

Out of the blue,
Sadness met warmness in me.
When someone opened his/her mind through mouth, 
I never expect something like that came out.

Teachers *Ng Chin & *Khoo.H.S
asked my brother's study progress,
And there I witnessed human kindnesses.

When I heard another ill-hearted news about someone I knew got cancers,
She transformed from a strong figure into a weak patient.
I remembered the one I saw walking head lifted high up and arrogant, changed faster than me!!

Life could evolved better or worse,
That's something not in our control.

#Innocent

I did no wrong.
Or maybe I was too stubborn to admit.
Ear or eyes betrayed me....
I shaked my head.
I have no idea, I told myself.
Uncertainty overlapped

What left on the table is
a packet of past and regret.

playr.co.uk - Zilch

playr.co.uk - Zilch

#Practical_Exam_Physics

Stripped a day of holiday just to arm myself with weapons for the Final Exam (S.P.M),

I see...
Figure out specific heat capacity [c] of marble and
clays that swung across my eyes with stopwatch in hand,

I skipped that moments,
In which I travelled back to future,
Just to realised I missed the time of reflections beyond me.

Insanity, tore me apart,
Period of oscillations soon turned into jaw-dropped results.

#Practical_Exam_Chemistry

Huh?? Me and Batch'98  chosen to repeat the history?
Starting to wonder life as lab rat,
Or should I look at the bright side,
>.<

"Nothing" goes wrong...
At least, I got the chance to just pour the KOH solution right into the burette with understanding pipette filler and it's purpose...
Haha!
Just let the solution flows like a waterfall,
scrambled exam paper...
dashed all liquid aside into sink.

Never too late to face the consequences,
yellow mark flashes on it..

That will always be the trademark of reckless in me.

#Smile

Given "SMILE" in Chinese essay exam. Expecting (= +/) Reality. Wrote a lot of points on paper, but unable to express out. Time ticking but I ain't going nowhere else.  :) is easy, but life is not easy.  I afraid I will find deadlock in writing if I keep the habit of care-less and over-confidence in me.

#I

I, the walking zombie at night.
Hanging myself upside down, often.

Recalling the life theories I heard,
How people stumbled, fall but always seeking ways to fix and mend the problem.
How teacher explain the father's love, real life experiences.
How I guided by my friend in differentiating REALITIES vs. DREAM.

Life doesn't seems to walk the way I wished,
My way of life is "unique" and I only do what I like.

#At the crossroads

Ì think that ï had being unprepared.
And suffer the consequences being hit and slapped at the face.
Or I did it purposely???
Ha-ha- ha!!!
Forever I label myself as a cheater.
I lied to myself
I lied to my life.

Given 2 days of freedom  to choose to be attended,  but I have been in a truly deep thought and I sank in the decisions.