#2014

Today is the last day of 2014,

As I writing, expressing my thoughts to whole world, 

I knew somewhere, somethings, some people is experiencing some kind incidents that seems hard to believe or to accept or to live with it every day. 

Humans, seems so fragile, tiny and so scary.

Hmm, for sometimes.

We have been lost in many ways, cried foul , frustrated with our efforts, won to prove that we are worth, helpless in tackling suffers we created, wishing for the very best, condemning others who brought world peace into dreamland but not reality, etc.. 

We also realized that time traveled like the speed of lights.

How many people waiting to be educated, to be freed from wars and conflicts, to enjoy a basic but yet lovely home, to achieve their dream, to be granted a normal life? How many of them, I don't know..

There will always be people who dare to fight for others bravely and they will not be frightened by any kind of high-tech weapons and ran off.
As Nelson Mandela once said,''Education is the most powerful weapon which one can use to change the world!''. So, why not?

Smile, as we are approaching another new start, we witnessed the cycle of day and night. The same Moon our ancestors and our next coming generations watched and stared, but the Earth which we claimed the living space constantly changed inevitably by human disastrous but yet somehow useful hands.

#Etc.

Yup, you may have mayhem sometimes,
you may felt disgust to someone you pinpointed as enemy,
you may find life is not in the perfect way you want,
you may think about ways to destroy them at their back secretly,
you may find your courage is not sufficient to bring them down to your knee and change the situations.

Yet, you may also finds that your lovely new day is thoroughly bothered by them.
Of course, you only think of them and you neglect the most important thing in your life--- TIME OF YOUR LIFE.
You want to beat them by using every tools you have, the knowledge, self-defense techniques and even your family members.

Aha! to fight this battle, you brought out every of yours as long as you can afford
Are they worth this fight? Ask yourself.

In the end, you= me

#Ooh

Sometimes, you felt sad for a tiny, small reason.
And your day was ruined by that.

No matter how many things you done just to forget it,
you just CAN'T change / trick your powerful mind.

Manipulate the outcome by imagining somethings else,
is the best effort you poured.

You fooled no one.
Including yourself.!
Haha!

I bet...
you were left with two choices,
Ignore or just pretending.

#Time

I killed someone,
Everyday.
His innocent eyes looked me straight in the eye.
I smiled cunningly,
while staring at his rotten flesh.
Blood flows like Nile River,
flourishing the woman he used to love.
He lived to love.
And he ended drown in love.
Also.

#Escape

Sometimes, I just felt like escaping from unknown,
Ooh! My fault.
When I failed, I looked back.
And I always did.
I ran,
Even knowing that I must do something on it.
I can't,
I can.
I lied upon myself,
Everytime.

#Fly

He flew away,
Just like the birds with wings.
Hope accompanied him from within.
I guess he never remember---
The route back home.

He left,
He left.
Skinny jeans hung around.
And it never met its master.

#Alone

"Strangers, Hi!"

Oops, I afraid I will keep that forever in myself.

Sitting, Watching peoples rushing from all corners, 

I knew, 

I knew no one.

Loneliness, terrible feelings sparked unusual spotlights. 

Money dropped, 

Heart stopped. 

Oh shit, 

opened mouth, Saliva swallowed in. 

I was alone in the big world

I mentioned.

Phone, money together,

I held them closer.

I see, 

I came, I see, but I can't conquer.

#Error

An error,
turns out to be the greatest mistake at all.
Left me zipped my mouth,
and let it be.
I do believe I don't like to explain,
even if I want to.
Do ask me,
"Why all that pooped out from somewhere?"
And I
jumped straight into blame game,
Forever.

#See

I see others,
struggling to make ends meet.
And yet,
they also failed to impress the Reality.

I see others,
making fool of themselves in front of the mirror,
Pretending smile really their best medicine,
I even believe the "pharmacist" failed Chemistry.

I see others,
Picking up scraps of life in recycle bin,
sparkling shiny metal reflected on themselves,
They ran hasten,
Never ever looked back,
Easy to guess why,
As that is no presence of the mighty Gold.

I see.
I see.

#Frogs

They were alive,
Just before me and my classmates decided to dissect them,
Yup!  For educational purpose.
That's what we claimed.
Ops!  Frog= latest victim.
May their souls be at peace,
Even when their body were physical torn.

And I took up the responsibility for bringing them to death
.

#Teachers

When is time to reflect on myself to not take lightly challenges,
Teachers told and expose my greatest mistakes, and I admit them all.

"YOUR FACE TURNED WHEN COMES TO CHEMISTRY EXPERIMENTS, YOU DID NOT PREPARE WELL AND YOUR GROUP MEMBERS ALL RELY ON YOU. THAT IS  THE WORST THING."
I knew that..

"83% IN BIOLOGY TEST DOES NOT GUARANTEE 'A' IN  SPM.
I see that teacher trying to hints something.

Form 4 life draws near to the end.
And I....

# Sometimes

Sometimes things went wrong,
Just blame them on your own faults.
Besides, keep calm & bear the consequences.

Test results' grade seems moderate when I took a sight on them.
I knew lazy brings out the ulgy sides. Frequently. And never fail.
Nothing changed even if I want to.

No one would able to replace me and my situation.
So, put the best efforts to keep up the pace.

:)

#Mix

Out of the blue,
Sadness met warmness in me.
When someone opened his/her mind through mouth, 
I never expect something like that came out.

Teachers *Ng Chin & *Khoo.H.S
asked my brother's study progress,
And there I witnessed human kindnesses.

When I heard another ill-hearted news about someone I knew got cancers,
She transformed from a strong figure into a weak patient.
I remembered the one I saw walking head lifted high up and arrogant, changed faster than me!!

Life could evolved better or worse,
That's something not in our control.

#Innocent

I did no wrong.
Or maybe I was too stubborn to admit.
Ear or eyes betrayed me....
I shaked my head.
I have no idea, I told myself.
Uncertainty overlapped

What left on the table is
a packet of past and regret.

playr.co.uk - Zilch

playr.co.uk - Zilch

#Practical_Exam_Physics

Stripped a day of holiday just to arm myself with weapons for the Final Exam (S.P.M),

I see...
Figure out specific heat capacity [c] of marble and
clays that swung across my eyes with stopwatch in hand,

I skipped that moments,
In which I travelled back to future,
Just to realised I missed the time of reflections beyond me.

Insanity, tore me apart,
Period of oscillations soon turned into jaw-dropped results.

#Practical_Exam_Chemistry

Huh?? Me and Batch'98  chosen to repeat the history?
Starting to wonder life as lab rat,
Or should I look at the bright side,
>.<

"Nothing" goes wrong...
At least, I got the chance to just pour the KOH solution right into the burette with understanding pipette filler and it's purpose...
Haha!
Just let the solution flows like a waterfall,
scrambled exam paper...
dashed all liquid aside into sink.

Never too late to face the consequences,
yellow mark flashes on it..

That will always be the trademark of reckless in me.

#Smile

Given "SMILE" in Chinese essay exam. Expecting (= +/) Reality. Wrote a lot of points on paper, but unable to express out. Time ticking but I ain't going nowhere else.  :) is easy, but life is not easy.  I afraid I will find deadlock in writing if I keep the habit of care-less and over-confidence in me.

#I

I, the walking zombie at night.
Hanging myself upside down, often.

Recalling the life theories I heard,
How people stumbled, fall but always seeking ways to fix and mend the problem.
How teacher explain the father's love, real life experiences.
How I guided by my friend in differentiating REALITIES vs. DREAM.

Life doesn't seems to walk the way I wished,
My way of life is "unique" and I only do what I like.

#At the crossroads

Ì think that ï had being unprepared.
And suffer the consequences being hit and slapped at the face.
Or I did it purposely???
Ha-ha- ha!!!
Forever I label myself as a cheater.
I lied to myself
I lied to my life.

Given 2 days of freedom  to choose to be attended,  but I have been in a truly deep thought and I sank in the decisions.

#Regret

I only left one year to choose,
Get up,
Or get down.

Excellent one,
need not to struggle in choosing the right path.
But,
the path will come by its own.

:P

Yup, that's the fact I realised.

#AddMaths

Trying to act MegaMind again...
But, I failed to overcome the test given,
I tilted down my head as if I am mourning for the lost of my conscience.

I noticed that,
And this is normal,
But,
things turned around,
when Mr.Khoo praised other's for excel in Add Maths,
I tilted my head again,
As a symbol of ashamed.

Before teacher went away,
he looked back,
And looked me right into my eyes in front of my fellow classmates,
said, "You! Do more exercises!"
I asked teacher, "Is it me?"
I bet he didn't hear it,

I shocked and guilty,
for being naive and claimed that I am a knowledgeable person.

It's time to reflect and laugh at myself, HAHA!

#Chemistry..

As usual, I have Chemistry practical experiments in Chemistry lessons.
And I was scolded thrice, My own life record. HAHA!
1st. I didn't do what he told, to add distilled water to the PbCl2 solution,
I was told, "Can't follow instructions!"
And then, I felt shocked but later take it easy, as I experienced that before.

2nd. I intend to light up the Bunsen burner just at the table in front of him,
Before I could do that, he stopped me and asked me to do it in front of him,
and I did what he asked.
I half-way to success, but because out of nervousness, I turned the knob clockwise and scolded once again. "Anticlockwiselah, aunty!"
As before, I was called Aunty Yi Ling by teacher, Yup! By TEACHER...
Unbelievable....
Haiz! Finally I managed to light it up.
But I failed one of the experiment of cations test. Golden shiny yellow PbCl2 unable to dissolve completely in the solution.  During cooling process, I accidently dropped the test tube. Luckily it doesn't broke. I kept asking Jian Liang whether did Mr.Lim noticed.
Phew! He heard the sound, as far as I guessed, and he didn't check out what happened.

3rd. Under my 4B's friend advice, I put a little amount of Pb2+ & KI. And again, I asked Kian Guan for confirmatory of the volume needed. He requested me to ask teacher as he does. And there, I asked, "Is this amount of solutions enough?" as I show him the solutions. He asked me whether I heated the solutions already or not?", I replied no, teacher said,"Go and heatlah, what are you waiting for?". I then go on for the process of heating. I went back to my table, and I found the Bunsen burner has been occupied by others. I looked around and saw the Bunsen burner near teacher can be used, I went there quickly without thinking much. I heated the solutions until they dissolve completely. What I didn't realised is, teacher is watching. He say," Hey, Hey, stop heating." I didn't know he was taking to me, and I put away the test tube as soon as I realised. I saw he turned around to witness my production of PbCl2 that soluble in hot water, but not in cold water. I told him,"But it is still hot." What is most surprised me is Mr.Lim's reaction as I looked at him, he smiled and noded with his closed eyes. I did obeyed his instructions to cool it but I kept thinking about his smile. He asked me to shake it, I at first shake it but I off the tap, I later think again that it is not a wise move. I turned on the tap again, and shake the solutions occasionally. He later asked me,"Is there any precipitate coming out?", I checked, and I said yes. When he saw this, he made up his mind and asked my fellow classmates to pour no distilled water before letting PbCl2 to be heated. This is to allow dissolving process can be occured easily.

Sometimes, study Chemistry in Mr.Lim's class really make people heart attack... As he would scold NO BRAIN in English and Tamil, DIDN'T FOLLOW INSTRUCTIONS,.......

And I got used to that, haha!
Smile to Chemistry and life!

#Biology

Maybe, I had found my negative-side.
The eagerness to complete some work fastly and ignore a lot of small, seemingly unimportant keys to gain success.

And I learnt my mistake when I was scolded the 2nd time in a row in a week at Science class.

Trying to be the hero in group experiment---> Tests to determine the nutrients in food samples. I poured the Benedict's solutions needed for two test tubes at once. I thought that was nothing wrong at all until I realised my long-upholded opinion had got me lost.

The process to get a lesson in life made me embarassed in front of classmates who had earlier adviced me that I was handling the solutions in measuring cylinder wrongly.

By teacher,"This is not the way how scientist do!", I can feel my face turned red at the moment I am pouring the blue solutions.

Somehow, getting to learn a lesson now is better than making mistake in practical exams for Science subjects.

#Malaysia_in_Chinese

在这蕉风椰雨的国度（马来西亚）里，
黎民社稷
曾经，现今和以后，
都会，
不分彼此地，
为建造一片美好苍穹和天空，
奋斗!!

淡泊的日子，
配着融洽的关系，
国务、经济腾飞万里，
马来西亚走上了国际舞台。

希望我们的马来西亚，
cendol 依然象征着大家的
未来。
甜甜的！

#Am_ I_ Wrong

Am I wrong?
For trying to keep time for myself.
Am I too selfish & make myself isolated,
From outer hustle, bustle world.

But/ However,
Rebellious and calm,
fighting, huh?

Yup, miserable Part (II),
aren't them?

I guess,
deep breath is all I need.

#Another_surprise

Doing homework quietly,
But paid no effort to earn "something" such suddened.

A small bar of chocolate appeared to me,
as a result of doing my duty as student

FROM a teacher TO student (me).
- - - Belgium chocolate.

FROM student ( me) TO teacher.
- - - Thanks a lot!!!

Felt ������
About ��
At around ��

#Nescafe

I never have chance to influence others until the day I found out that a simple picture can change a lot.

I shared a picture of 2 Nescafe Mocha & Nescafe Latte. And I least expected that my friend would follow my trail and bought them.

The moral value is that no one can escaped from being exposed in web-life if stepped foot in it.

#Shock_state

Never would I expected,
One day I would be wet by "special water".

Concentration in everything had gone,
Ever since,
the ultimate question bothers me.
No one could get me infinite answer,
Really! For sure!

How could I trespassing it,
and acheive the best?

After all, scolded and wet by water because slight mistake of
scratching the beloved car of father.

Haiz!

#Brotherhood

When we are not alone in this vast world,
And we realised that we still have each other by the side,
I guessed we all see happiness.

But when the room is empty,
the people had left,
What I saw is time had gone pass,
And all I witnessed is the effect of growth.

It's time to fly and aim high in life.
Brotherhood will always stay in best memories.

All those fights, tears, sweats, toils and bloods,
will remain somewhere in mind.

#Applause

I wondered why the applause getting louder around the performer,
Even though they/ she/ he didn't put on the best show for others.

But things went upside down for me,
A single applause can only be heard,
Even from the bottom of my heart,
I believed I did better than others.

I think this all was just about psychology games that aimed at one's heart and minds.
The FAKE applause given,
is aimed to criticise, to laugh at, to look down one's nose at someone.
As they feel like they are in the upper hand.

To say that I am excellent, hmm, I guessed I am way too self-centred, haha!
But, that is the fact and truth that I strongly put my faith on to believe and to strive for the best!

I think the more great one's will become, one will feel at the top of world but not on top of the world.
Applause brings different meaning ever since......

#Phone

I thought all went so  damn wrong,
I can't even really study and I afraid something that is beyond my negative thinking resurfaced.
Handling a smartphone change my way of life eversince.
100% attentions and care are poured.
But when it went down as the battery misplaced,
I thought the thought I thought really isn't thought anymore!

I went on to study thinking too much,
Finally, the problems fixed afterall.
:)

#IWon

The prize came unexpectedly into my hand.
And I was in a shock state when I realised I got the prize for Biology quiz competition,
Heih? I thought I wouldn't receive it as I knew I did not even put a single effort to try my best,
Maybe, I should accept a TRUTH....

Nothing can be so accurately create something in my life..

#Questions

LIKE, 

has been a trend. 

But, 

"thanks!" & "you are welcome!",

slowly being shown to way out of socialise and communicating world.

#Wanderer

Are we just wanderer?
Finding a kaleidoscope of self-defined world
OR reality.

I am totally confuse,
when sugar mixed with salt.

I had lost direction.

#Scary

When I fell into desperation,
Nothing can't stop me from sneezing towards life.
Oh, I see, nothing is forever.
Or we realised that all,
But we want a temporary companion.

:)

Me!!!!!!

  I am from Malacca, Malaysia.
  I am sixteen years old, a student from Bukit Baru High School, Malacca.
  Currently, pursuing knowledge in this great big world, waiting to explore the universe of wonder.
  My hobbies is playing CANDY CRUSH SAGA and FLAPPY BIRD during leisure.
  I love teaching others in various aspects, helping others to overcome their difficulties in life.

  As I ponder in the angle of Science, I still can't figure out how am I and seven billions more human populations started out our lifes in the lovely Earth, hmm......
  Education isn't about paper qualifications but to also lift up human civilisations

Life 17-9-2014

Sometimes, I would just like to immerse myself in the fictional world.
And I would not try my best effort to get myself out of there.
Not even a single try.
Maybe, it all because of it is me, myself.
I think I got TIME to waste, to spend, to let it go and slipped through my hand.....

3-9-2014

Today, while I was doing the Chemistry experiment, I was astounded by the attitude of Teacher Lim.
It all started with the neutralisation between NaOH and HCl experiment.
I was so damn blurred with all the procedures and steps, therefore me with my other group members started very late, and we even need not to label ourselves that, everyone can see through their naked eyes.
I firstly did according to the steps given, but I made some minor mistake (or should I call it major mistake? )
I put the conical flask beneath the burette while I was filling the HCl into the burette slowly as I was nervous.
My teacher came with his acidic words (NO BRAIN! ), I was shocked!
Then, he slowly remove it for me and said, "Next time don't do like this." and walked away.
180 degree drastic change really amazed me!
Hah! I really can't believe it!
I think he is a good teacher, I laughed at the way he talk to classmates, but when I approached him to answer my doubt in study, he stressed on the mistakes I made and said that, "Everytime I teach, you only know how to laugh." And I kept quiet, and I seldom do that.
But I think I just can't control, he really got that sense of humor, so I kept on laughing......whole year till now.